Friday, June 26, 2020

Dreams Can Inspire Your Next Work of Fiction


I'm thinking about dreams this morning because last night I had a very strange dream. Often I may have a nightmare about being lost, or someone with a weapon is after me, or being funny enough to do stand up comedy. I once dreamed of hosting Saturday Night Live. I've also dreamed about writing a hit song (that was lost after awakening), walking on the Moon in which I remember being in a domed city, how the artificial atomosphere felt to breathe, and the crunch of the surface under my feet. That very dream was turned into a short story to be released July 15, 2020, by DLG Publishing as a short story titled "Olympus."



I've met Cleopatra in dreams, as well as sailed on a 19th-century ship across the Atlantic. Six months before the Three Mile Island accident, I had a dream that mirrored the actual accident. In waking life, I was in the same exact place and time in Middletown as events unfolded as I had in the dream. In 1971, I had the most emotional dream of my life. After a former fiance died, I was grieving to the point of reckless abandon. I had taken ownership of her sports car and nearly wiped out while driving. The thought of taking someone else with me scared me into being more careful, but I was still a mess. The dream was as real as they get.

The woman I almost married came to me in the dream dressed in white, and said in a firm tone just sort of scolding, "Your grief is well taken, but your place is among the living."

Dreams have found their way into my writing and a new twist on time travel is planned for a future novel--all because of a dream. Dreams can be wondrous, frightening, or so beautiful that you hate waking up. As a teenager, I chronically dreamed of being romantically involved with a movie star upon whom I had a hopeless crush. It was very innocent, but overwhelmingly captivating. In those dreams, when I realized I was awakening, I was greatly disappointed and struggled to go back to sleep, determined to resume that dream world. I succeeded only once--the rest were over faster than a Hollywood marriage and I had to face my day in reality. Still, dreams have offered me a rich source of material to where I can go back and live in them through written words.

Often, dreams symbolize our worst fears and others are just plain stupid. We find ourselves in the middle of a plot or story for which we have no clue how we got there or how we became involved with strangers in their drama. There are those who believe we are interacting with the Astral Plane while sleeping, but I cannot say I am aware of any such ability--with the exception, possibly, my late fiance coming to me. I have not yet hosted Saturday Night Live or felt the lunar regolith beneath my feet.

As for the dream last night, in case you are still interested in this tome (by Facebook and Twitter standards), I dreamed I could levitate off the ground and float along in any direction quite easily--as I decided to do so for no other reason than to show off to a group of people seated at a picnic table just before I entered a public restroom. When I came out of the men's room, I realized I had encroached upon enemy territory and a huge warrior about a foot and a half taller than me grabbed me by the shirt collar and raised a sword big enough to cut off the head of a dragon above my head ready to strike me. In the dream, I was more powerful. I easily overtook the man, broke free of his grip, blocked his sword and disarmed him, and picked him up off the ground by the neck and tossed him to the ground. I didn't harm him, but he was completely disoriented. I just walked away. No one said that dreams have literary merit, but who knows what could end up in a story after plugging holes in the logic. The rest of the dream morphed into a bloody battle of ninja like soldiers armed with automatic weapons, but I'll save the rest of the story--not for the couch of a psychiatrist, but for some work of fiction.

What crazy dreams have you had?   

Thursday, May 28, 2020

Revisiting My Blog


 I've decided to give my blog another go, in case you've had anxiety over my lack of posts. Since the last time, I've had two short stories published and a new short story about a post-apocalyptic city on the Moon, "Olympus," about to be published. I actually completed three novels, but my original intent was to publish them as a trilogy. I decided instead to publish each to stand on their own, so I'm starting a rewrite of the first book. Authors, like painters, often take a longer look at their creations and decide it's just not good enough. In the meanwhile, I decided it was a good idea to raise my appeal among publishers by publishing some short stories. A mentor, author Catherine Jordan, whom I admire, accused me of not writing enough. Catherine's workshops are the reason I've become a better writer, as has my wife Carol, now published, and my daughter, Amy K. Lauver, whose novel Soulbound, will be released on September 20. Catherine was correct about my productivity. I could claim I write a great deal if I include Facebook and Twitter, but I have no chance of a Pulitzer Prize in social media. Which is the reason I am returning here. I have no problem turning a 280 character opinion into a 5,000-word essay. My posts are often way too long on Facebook. I prefer a more leisurely stroll.


I tend to become distracted by multiple interests, including an in-depth examination of my family history. I've discovered a few very interesting stories in my family tree that I may turn into books or short stories. They include such tales, all verified as true, as my 5th-great-grandfather who lived to age 124; my 10th great-grandmother accused of being a witch in New England in the mid-1600s; my ancestor who slew the Prince of Wales and became knighted; my grandfather who survived near death wounds on a French WWI battlefield and married the nurse who cared for him.

History is also full of interesting ideas for fiction or nonfiction, including a young woman who was born in my county of residence and, at age 29, was the last woman hanged in Boston in 1789. Rachel Schmidt Wall, if indeed that was her real name, is part legend and part tragic figure. She was hanged for "highway robbery," pleading her innocence to the end. But the legend of her being America's first lady pirate has far exceeded the evidence. Her story will either be an exoneration of her alleged crimes and history corrected, or it will turn into a novel of piracy. It's an interesting quandary. 





I have more to say, but that's enough for your reading endurement.

Stay healthy, my friends,
The Time Voyager.

Tuesday, June 7, 2016

New Tool in the War Against Robocallers and Phone Scammers

I'm not posting this as an advertisement. I'm posting this as sweet revenge against telemarketing scammers (TMs) and robocallers. And there's something new that's FREE. Since I work at home writing, researching, and catching up on your latest Facebook news, interruptions from illegal TMs have driven me crazy, despite being on the Do-No-Call (DNC) list. Now they're starting to call cell phones, so dropping the landline is not an answer. TMs ignore the DNC and use fake caller ID numbers.

 



I've tried taking advantage of Verizon's call management to block specific numbers from TMs and annoying "surveyors." I posted a complaint on Verizon's community bulletin board, which, at the time, they only allowed up to 10 blocked numbers, a very silly limit with millions of illegal scam calls out there. There was a storm of agreement in public comments. Soon afterwards, they raised the limit to 100 numbers. Using that, aside from wasting my time, cut the number of robocalls in half, but it did not stop them. They change their fake numbers frequently.

The federal government has received hundreds of thousands of complaints over violations of the DNC. So, they sponsored a contest to reward the first company to come up with a better idea using technology. The winner was this company, Nomorobo. Dozens of landline, wireless, and internet phone companies are participating, including Verizon, AT&T, Xfinity, Skype, etc. And the great thing is, it's free. It should be. The phone companies have failed to stop TMs.

I installed Nomorobo this morning. It's easy if you can access your phone management on the web. I tested it and I'm ready to see what happens. I'll let you know in a couple of weeks how it's working.

Sunday, May 22, 2016

A Caution Against the Stumbling Stone

    I have a cautionary tale, especially for writers who store their creative works on their computers. I'd like nothing more than to cover up my failure so that no one ever knows what an idiot I am today. However, Kahlil Gibran had something to say about this in his literary masterpiece, The Prophet. He wrote:
  

   And when one falls down, he falls down for those behind him, a  caution against the stumbling stone.
    Ay, and he who falls down for those ahead of him, who though faster and surer of foot, yet removed not the stumbling stone.


 So indeed, I did stumble. The tripping stone was my system of backups for my novel. I had decided to rewrite some chapters, or, at least, rework the narrative and dialogue. I had a very productive three weeks and felt I had greatly improved my story. Of course, I do save my files frequently; I have the latest virus and system check software; back up my files to three external hard drives; and keep a copy in the Cloud. The day will come when my computer displays the blue screen of death and I want to be prepared.

However, I got so busy and involved with my work, three weeks slipped by without an external save. Of course, I was clicking on "Save" to update my Word file. My stumble did not come from a crashing computer. In my decades of writing, since the first day I had access to a computer, through countless magazine columns, blogs, letters to the editor, love letters, nonfiction books, short stories, and a trilogy of novels, I had never made the mistake I made over the weekend.

 When I took action to save my files to my external drive, I copied what I thought was the latest changes on the book to overwrite the old external backup. Instead, I copied the old file to overwrite the new file. What a stupid screw up! I know how it happened, but the details aren't important.

Somehow the screens got switched. The file directories at the top of the screen do not specify which is my C: directory on my computer and which is the E: directory of the external harddrive. Afterwards, I looked at the dates of the external directories and compared it with the file dates of the dates on my pc. Why were they both the same and three weeks old? They should have had the date of the previous day.

 After I gasped for breath, suppressed a scream, and withheld a string of profanities, I did what any writer should do--I panicked! I tried every method I could think of from my experience with computers to undo the mistake. Word is supposed to save automatic restore points. At least two weeks of the mistake were mercifully recovered from the restore point, but there were still consequences for my stupidity. Word should be automatically making recover copies more frequently, but for some reason it didn't. No one in the Microsoft community could explain why that feature is not working, other than I am using an old version of Word that has otherwise worked fine for me.

 Here I sit with thousands of words and a good number of work hours shot to hell. I will have to start over with the chapter rewrites. At this moment I'm sympathizing more with Hemingway being driven to drink. I guess you could say I had a bad day. I'll get it back and somehow find the creativity to reboot, but not today. Properly self-flogged, I will just move forward on Monday. Carol says she had a similar problem losing an entire short story, but her rewrite ended up being published. Knock on wood (my head, for example) that my new rewrite will be better than the last.

 So, authors, screenwriters, composers, artists, and photographers, heed my cautionary tale. There are 50 ways you can screw up your latest creative work. This is just one of them. Make sure your backups are fail safe.

 

Saturday, April 30, 2016

The Tragic Death of Margaret McQuade Bunyon

 152 West 124th Street, Harlem, NYC (behind tree), 
where Margaret McQuade Bunyon died at age 27.

Often, stories to be told can originate from within your own family. Novelists often borrow from their families and friends to create characters and stories. For years, I've been looking for traces of information about my mother's Irish branch of the family that settled in New York City in the late 1800s. It's not easy to sort out vital records in America’s most populated city. Little or nothing found its way to the pages of Manhattan newspapers. There were just too many people a century ago. You had to be wealthy or notorious to be deemed worthy of so much as an obituary. My family was neither and a chance at wealth was passed up in the name of love. My McQuade and Bunyon ancestors were just immigrants struggling to make a living in Irish Harlem at a time when Irish Catholics were not welcomed everywhere. 

This was 126th St. at 7th Ave, NYC,  in 1910, two blocks from the apartment building where 
Joseph and Margaret (McQuade) Bunyon lived with my grandmother Helen until she was 7.

In 1919, my protestant grandfather, Fred J. Davis of Altoona, was recovering in a military hospital in New York City for months after being wounded twice on French battlefields during WWI, the second time a machine gun cut him down. He would have lost a leg had he not threatened the life of a surgeon who was all too eager to amputate. It was at the hospital in New York where he met and married my Catholic grandmother, Helen Bunyon. Helen was a young nurse, not yet 17 years old, helping seriously wounded soldiers transferred from Europe. When my grandfather awoke in the hospital, Helen was standing over him in her white uniform. My grandfather told my mother he thought he had died and Helen was an angel. She was very beautiful, with hair down to the middle of her back when it wasn’t tied up in a bun. I can’t even imagine the grief when my grandmother died in 1933 at age 30, of a staph infection following an operation for a thyroid tumor at an Altoona Hospital. In the middle of the Depression, after years of being denied benefits by the Veterans Bureau, and with five children, my grandfather loses the love of his life and the woman who brought him back to life following the war. Their love story is an excellent basis for a novel some day. 

They married soon after Davis was discharged from the hospital. To my Welsh Davis family, after five generations in Maryland and Pennsylvania, a Protestant marrying a Catholic was not a big deal. But, to native Irish Catholics, fleeing hunger and war with Protestants in Ireland, it was a very big deal. Helen's parents were both dead, her mother when she was 7 and her father before that. Helen's aunt, who raised Helen, according to family oral history, is said to have married into a family that owned a chain of jewelry stores around New York City. When Helen married my grandfather, she was disinherited. Love has a tradition in my family of coming before money and I’ve never sensed any bias against any religion in my family. In fact, few people know that I was confirmed in the Catholic Church, but it’s a long story as to why I am not a practicing Catholic. Perhaps if Helen had remained close to her family's religious beliefs, she wouldn't have married my grandfather. That would have erased everyone who followed—my mother, me, my children, grandchildren, etc. 

Because my grandmother died when my mother was 5 years old, repeating history her mother suffered as a child, much was lost in learning more about the Bunyons and McQuades. Then yesterday, after discovering the City of New York held family records in its archives, I received the 1910 death certificate of my great-grandmother, Margaret McQuade Bunyon after 20 years of searching. "Chronic Alcoholic Gastritis," the coroner concluded. She was 27 years old. What that means is, whether from stress, an infection, or excessive alcohol consumption, she most likely suffered a painful death from a bleeding ulcer. Life was tough in Harlem for a poor Irish immigrant mother raising a young child and trying to make ends meet. The circumstances of Margaret’s death were never known until this past week, so it was a shocking revelation as to how she died so young. In family history, I've learned not to judge or make comparisons to subsequent generations. I will never know what life was like in the context of early 20th century in an already crowded city and being an ethnicity among the unwanted. I see Margaret as family, just as if she was alive today. In a way, when we research our families, our ancestors do live again. For a writer, every document, clipping, photograph, or oral tradition is another chapter in their tale. Imagining the rest is left to our own ability to visualize the past as best we can. 

There is still little known about my great-grandfather, Joseph Bunyon. Oral tradition traces him back to the grandfather of John Bunyan (1628-1688), author of one of the most prolific books in history, The Pilgrim's Progress. Bunyan, a nonconformist and a writer, both personally familiar traits, encourage me to believe the link could be true. Like Bunyan, who was imprisoned in England for preaching the "wrong" religious doctrine, having the attitude we'd rather go to jail than compromise our principles, is intrinsic on all sides of my family tree. However, any connection has yet to be documented. That gap should be closed as soon as I find records on Joseph. My cousin believes she’s found records on Joseph. Joseph was in the Army during the Spanish American War and was discharged a month before he married my great-grandmother. The Bunyan family tree has been extensively researched over the centuries. Plugging in my branch to the right tree is yet to be done, but centuries of stories wait for confirmation. Finding Margaret’s grave will also be difficult. She was buried at Calvary in Queens, the primary cemetery for Catholics in 1910. There are three million burials at Calvary. Online grave finders list 67,000 Calvary burials, at most, but not my great-grandmother. 

Because Margaret’s death certificate recorded that she died at home, I now have the 1910 home address for her and my 7-year-old grandmother, Helen—152 West 124th Street, Manhattan. Most of New York City has been photographed by Google Maps. Sure enough, the original apartment building is still there. Today, it’s a five-story, rent-controlled co-op with a leaky roof and directly across the street from the loading entrance of the African American Studio Museum in Harlem. When I look up at that building, I don’t see just another meaningless, red brick building. I see the ghosts of my family locked in a struggle with life and tragedy. [see photos]

Wednesday, March 9, 2016

Praying to St. Julia Child




Yesterday felt as though there was bad mojo in the air. You know, on those days when I seem to drop everything and my day is like one foot nailed to the floor. No, I'm not losing it. I've been like that all my life. Most days are great, things go smoothly, and I feel like I accomplished something. But there are days once in a while when I feel like a complete bumbling fool.

When little annoying things go wrong for Carol or me, we can usually make troubles seem small by injecting a little humor and laughter into the moment. For example, picture me dumping my hot lunch yesterday--Salisbury steak, potatoes, gravy, cheesy covered broccoli and all--all over the floor, table, and my chair in the sun room. Carol and I giggled like school children as I cleaned up the mess. 

It's also helpful for me to recall classic moments in Carol's history, particularly one day early in our marriage. At the time, Carol was working in a bank, a job she hated, and one of her co-workers had gotten on her nerves. She held her bad day inside her and prepared dinner. She was opening a bag of uncooked rice when it accidentally tipped over and dumped its contents into a silverware drawer that was open. There it was a drawer full of rice. It might it as well as have been gunpowder. That's when the force of her bad day caused her to explode into the most unbelievable tirade of profanity and stomping feet I had ever seen. It wasn't really the rice in the drawer, it was that woman at work who made her day miserable. 

I had a good day, so I was able to weather the moment without reacting negatively. Instead I worked to calm her down sympathetically as she explained why she exploded. I sat her on a chair and in my best impression of her, reenacted exactly every moment of her outburst--stomping feet, fists flailing in the air, all while loudly repeating her profanity. The gamble paid off. She screamed with laughter. I love it when I'm her favorite comedian. Making her laugh at herself at that moment was priceless. We hugged each other and realized that we just didn't want the rest of our world to define our moods and let others get to us. 

Yesterday, after lunch, as Carol returned to teach her kindergarten class only a mile from here, I was responsible for cooking a whole chicken in the slow cooker for dinner--nicely seasoned with lemon, paprika, and rosemary. As it simmered for its scheduled six hours in the slow cooker, I continued away from the kitchen in the sun room, putting the finishing editing touches on my short story. Carol had a writing workshop class last evening, so having a nice dinner ready before she leaves the house is helpful for her schedule.


Thirty minutes before she was to arrive home, I checked on the chicken. WHAT THE HELL??!! The cooker was completely off. I had no idea what time it had turned off or why. So I did what any normal person would do. I panicked. Instead of a clock finish, I turned to the meat probe that comes with the cooker, inserted it into the chicken through the lid, set the heat setting to high, and to look for 180 degrees F., the recommended safe temperature to tell when chicken is done. The probe read out on the cooker was 140 degrees...just right for salmonella. When Carol arrived home after work, I reported my progress as the temperature read 152. I'm happy to report I was not beaten for my incompetence. lol. We decided to take a walk and laugh it off as I secretly prayed to St. Julia Child for a miracle. Twenty minutes later, we came back and the temp had reached 178. Yay! Two minutes later, it was done.


I had recovered from a bad day as soon as the sun set, like a hapless vampire whose powers are weakened by daylight. The chicken was delicious, by the way, and Carol's laughter with me instead of at me is appreciated. Oh, yeah, and the short story is ready for my editor.

Thursday, November 19, 2015

"The Only Thing We Have to Fear is Fear Itself"

Photo from Z News, India


These words spoken by Nicole Kidman about how she approaches life and her film roles can apply to everything we strive to achieve in life. Let's also pray that our country is ruled by common sense and not by fear. Fear is a normal and temporary human response to events, real or imagined, that threaten our lives, our well being, or our self confidence. Fear of failure can stop us from even trying. Fear of events people don't understand led people to the Salem witch trials, to the incarceration of Japanese Americans during World War II, to the Red scare with its McCarthy hearings and ruination of innocent lives, into the war in Iraq looking for weapons of mass destruction, and, ultimately, to the sacrifice of liberty in the name of security. When fear is justified, the right response is not reaction out of fear or politics, but with common sense and the right measure of humanity to those who are suffering, even as we direct our courage, defiance, and justice at those filled with evil.